You know when things seem to be going from bad to worst when you find that you can’t sleep at night because all you kept thinking about is that problem that seems to not want to go away.

So as you should know by now, I gave up full time work to pursue my full time career and passion for music…….

I made sure I covered myself and told creditors and whoever else I had to pay on a monthly basis that I will no longer be working (as such, I’m temping at the mo), but now it seems money is running low and I can’t seem to think about anything else apart from I NEED TO PAY MY BILLS.

This has been so hard for me because ever since I have been working I have NEVER missed a payment and always paid my bills, but now I don’t have a steady income things seem to going pear shape and all I keep thinking about is go back to full time employment, be sad and pay my bills.

I can’t go back, I really can’t. Once you leave that burden feeling of working for something you don’t love, you really feel like crap every Monday to Friday and just count your days away until the weekend, I can not have a life that anymore. I really want to wake up every morning excited to face another day working on something I love to do. (You understand what I mean).

I must say writing this blog really makes me understand I have to keep fighting and not let debt get in my way, it is a crazy battle you have inside your head when you get scared and let fear take over, but I wont let it win. I’M A SURVIVOR! lol

Speak to you soon.

Krisha

xx