So…. I have been thinking what am I really scared of, there is really only 2 reasons for me.

1) Scared of success
2) Scared of failing

I seem to be in a bubble that will not burst and set me free, I keep putting off everything I want to do, weighing up as many excuses I possible can, just to not make that next step.
I find it easy for people to say just go and do it, but I find that sometimes it’s really not that easy when you have some issues to address with yourself.
I mean I know I want success, but your scared if you fail and people say “oh I knew it could not happen to you” or “Not everyone is meant to be successful”. You have a lot of thoughts that can easily put you off from what you truly want or trying to achieve.

I have been doing some serious soul searching and going back to when I was 7-8 years old, having no fear and doing what the heck I wanted to do and proving anyone wrong who thought I couldn’t do or say something.

I have had a few breaking points but that all to do with life giving you tests to see how strong you really are, but don’t you worry, I will break that bubble and make the life I know I should be having.

So for now, stay strong and stay proud of yourselves for even getting up in the morning to have another great day.

Love you always

Krisha

You know when things seem to be going from bad to worst when you find that you can’t sleep at night because all you kept thinking about is that problem that seems to not want to go away.

So as you should know by now, I gave up full time work to pursue my full time career and passion for music…….

I made sure I covered myself and told creditors and whoever else I had to pay on a monthly basis that I will no longer be working (as such, I’m temping at the mo), but now it seems money is running low and I can’t seem to think about anything else apart from I NEED TO PAY MY BILLS.

This has been so hard for me because ever since I have been working I have NEVER missed a payment and always paid my bills, but now I don’t have a steady income things seem to going pear shape and all I keep thinking about is go back to full time employment, be sad and pay my bills.

I can’t go back, I really can’t. Once you leave that burden feeling of working for something you don’t love, you really feel like crap every Monday to Friday and just count your days away until the weekend, I can not have a life that anymore. I really want to wake up every morning excited to face another day working on something I love to do. (You understand what I mean).

I must say writing this blog really makes me understand I have to keep fighting and not let debt get in my way, it is a crazy battle you have inside your head when you get scared and let fear take over, but I wont let it win. I’M A SURVIVOR! lol

Speak to you soon.

Krisha

xx

So the title should really give it away to you, I feel like I WAS sitting in darkness.

So I had to go back to basic and find some self help books to help me, I am a big reader of self help books and audio books because it makes me a better person and it really makes me understand a lot about myself and to just make me understand everything a bit better.

The reason why I say I was sitting in darkness because I lost my focus for a looonnnngggg minute. I felt very burnt out and could not understand why I would mope around the house and stay still underneath my covers.

What had happen I lost sight to what I was doing, why I was doing things, why I was saying things and what things did I believe in.

My goodness life is just so exciting and funny at times, but I knew that I would come back and get that focus back. I don’t even think I got my focus back coming to think of it, what I believe I have gained now is motivation on my set goals.

I was reading a lovely book, which I will tell you all about it in my wisdom blog ,this author open feelings and situations I thought I could never conquer, I thank him very much.

So what I will leave with you today is find things that motivate you and gets you excited and passionate about what ever you desire.

I’m going to write now exactly how I feel at this moment, happy, happy happy and HAPPY. lol

Speak to you lovelys real soon

Krisha

PS Don’t forget to go to www.krishamusic.co.uk and sign up to my fan club.

xxxxxx

Hey guys,

Well, what have I been up to??????

I have been shooting my own music video. I hear you all saying how, so here is my story.

Four and a half years ago I thought to have a website and an album I had to be signed to a record label! WRONG!

Something told me Three years ago, Krisha, why don’t you fund your career and invest in a studio, make your album and ask for help on the website. (CHECK I done that now) 2 years down the line I have my BREAKDOWN album.

Last year I had that thought again, how can I have a music video and I have no money or no backing by a record label????? Save up and make my own video!

I brought the lights, the frame to hold up the white backdrop and I already had a camera and that was it.

It took 2 long days to do. I had to rent a space out, set up the backdrop and lights and camera.

Then I had to put my clothes on, then do my hair then do my make-up, by then that’s 1 hour and 45 minutes gone.

I had to sing with my track which is 3 mins long in each set of clothes over and over again, whilst doing that, repositioning the camera angle and checking that the filming looks right. (I’m telling you the 2nd day I slept like a baby when I got home)

So that was shooting the video, nest step was to convert all my videos which was a problem because for some stupid reason my camera records in a weird format so I had to convert it to MPEG. Now most software can be free but once I downloaded a free software I GOT A BLOODY VIRUS! Yes, by then I wanted to quit. My laptop was just not working, so for 2 days I was searching every single forum to fix the problem because I have no money to send it to a shop to fix. After almost giving up I found a great forum that went through step by step to fix the problem and tada it was fixed! (Well I hope. lol)

So, after that I just brought a software to convert it and off I went to create to make my video.

It took a whole week to chop, cut, strip and play about to get the result, but you know what, it was so worth it all.

Not many artist that are ready to put that much work in , without getting a lot back. I believe that I want my music career so bad, I’m willing to prove and show how serious I am.

So please support and to view my work, the link is

So if you have a Youtube account, leave a comment.

Love ya

Krisha

xx

What a challenging January I have had, apart from being sick with the flu for 2 weeks, money being owed to me but not yet come back, money been taken away from me from the tax man (by accident they say) and having to restructure my whole plan for my music career, I truly believe when it rains it really does pour.

I was listening to my album BREAKDOWN and I was listing to Hold me, there is a line I say in the second verse “Every time I rise, I get knock down” and in life this really does happen. When you think you are finally overcoming something, somewhere, you get pulled back down to start again.

It was a bad month but the 31^st January, one of my friends had a lovely baby girl, I did witness the birth and it was just amazing, someone who has no children yet, shed tears of joys when she arrived.

I kept saying to my friend you are amazing, she was in labour for an hour and half and was only using gas and air, 3 pushes and she gave birth to a 7/11 pound baby girl.

So a new to me made me feel wonderful, yes, January was horrible but you know what it does not stop my future of having peace and happiness in my life.

Speak to you soon

Krisha

The media can be really depressing!

I must say, hearing the credit crunch and recession, people losing their jobs, big high street retailers closing down, sometimes I wish they never told us EVERYTHING!

Trying to make a real go of my music career now, the newspapers and TV reports puts ideas in my head that maybe I’m going to fail sooner rather than later, but on the other hand I think that you can only be down for so long.

I truly believe that if we have been through this once and over came it, I believe it can happen again, we just have to be smart about things in life, don’t take things for granted no more.

This time I will not be giving into obstacles that are in my way, yes it’s a struggle now, but one day I will be laughing and looking what happened in the past and appreciate where I was came from.

So for now, think big dreams and believe ANYTHING can happen.

Speak to you soon

Krisha

Xx

Hey Guys,

OMGoodness, I have just seen this good piece of news. BT Digital was doing awards for various online projects and I entered the award for the Best offical music site and I came 57 out of 100.

To me, that’s fantastic. Check it out

http://www.btdma.com/index.php/dma08/peoples_choice/

Speak to you soon.

Krisha.

xx

Hey guys,

So it’s nearly 2009 and guess what I did. I gave up a full time secured job to take a full time Music career.

Now that is something important that I have just said. I have given up a job and taken on now a career.
Over the last couple of months, I have been debating whether to throw in the secured job that pays my bills month in month out, survive on 100 pounds a month and have my music career sit on the shelves and do nothing with it.

I was thinking is it a really worth throwing this away???

Of course it is! My thoughts to life is I only live once and doing things that I don’t really want to do or become is not worth me living if that’s the rules I want to follow.

I have to tell you I am so scared of what’s going to happen to me or where I will end up, but you know what, I have belief, I have belief in my dreams and abilities to ride me to that glory.

If you have been following me since the start of my blog, you would know that it has been 2 years since I have been writing this blog and telling you the journeys I’m going through, but to be honesty I have not follow through 100% with my career and as a promise 2009 will be an exciting year for me.

So as from 2nd January 2009, I will no longer be a worker or employee. No, I will be a Music Artist from the UK who sings, writes, act, dance and entertains her fans.

So 2009 here we come.

Krisha
xxx

My goodness,

A lot has happened in a month. My boyfriend told me to go to a seminar with him because he believed I would get a lot out of it, so I went.

The seminar was called “Breakthrough to success” and the speaker was a guy called Christopher Howard, I had no idea who he was but a lot of people were saying he is so great, boy, this man has changed my thoughts, feelings, beliefs and focus for the better.

It’s not a culture thing, it’s a seminar to highlight problem areas in your life and change it for the better. I had a lot of baggage that I have know left in the past and now I feel even more ready to make my career even more of a success.

I still feel scared at times to take that leap in certain areas of my life, but what Christopher Howard highlights and teaches you to overcome it’s amazing.

I will post the links on my wisdom page and I do recommend going to the next one and you will see a change in your life. I HAVE! xxxxxx

Love you as always

Krisha